Sunday, January 21, 2007

Old Ideas - what i need or what i want

Large retail parks, warehouses, huge expanses of space
Filled with things which I think i need some of
Truth is I dont.... today
But again today I was with someone who was going
So I went along, thinking there may be something I need
Something new, from the last time i went to one
which i didnt need anything last time
No, once again I dont
The stuff i may need, i can pick up locally
when i need it
no need to get it today just incase

It has been a beautiful day
Sun shone this morning
Got a lift to another part of town
Listened to someone talk about themselves
Was of service
talked about me for abit
Someone showed me in my face alcohol & insanity
how frightening it can be to fear telling the truth
seeing what a cornered animal looks like
in the form of a human, on the jumping off point
gripped, scared, a 6foot toddler...
food and friends

still have some bug
no decorating today
further sleeping, must need it

Good night, its been satisfactory :-)
Which is what was promised

thank you

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Moment of clarity

Got a warm feeling of gratitude today
Grateful to have choices
for a freedom
for a moment of clarity
my thinking is not the root of the problem
my defects are
giving time time to sink in
thinking my thinking is the root...
is also acting out out on my defects
it doesnt say
...ready to have God remove our thinking
gift to be enjoying my current security
gift to enjoy making my home comfortable
decorating it myself
researching & doing
new carpets
am worth it... another gift
have friends
have job
am of use
this is a gift
having a relationship with a loving God
is taking time to get used to
but its so worth the effort
no i dont understand it
no i am not sure if i get it right
it dont seem to matter
just keeping on

Happy January

Warm Feeling... The only other warm feeling
was at the end of an evening and couldnt get to a bathroom

There but for the grace of God Go I

And I just switched to New Blogger...
...and lost all my links
... enjoying the adventure