Thursday, November 29, 2007

whats occurring?

you know I have to not take myself very seriously
because I just see so much crazyness everywhere

I can analyse to the 'enth degree

really if you look at lots of "serious" things
they are absurd somewhere along the line

Yeh I have to not take life so damn seriously, grimly
although I so take responsibility where required

I am crazy
I am also very sane

I have a sense of humour
I also have can be serious

I can laugh
I can cry

I can show no emotion
I can show an emotion

Rule #62 is about not taking things so seriously

Life can be enjoyed
Life can be endured
or both as it seems to be at times

Its great to be predictable without trying
its great not to be predictable without trying

I try to understand that I dont understand people
and I accept at times you
too will not understand me, but I am powerless
as to whether you understand that you will not understand me

get it?

I am what I am
I am who I am

I am afraid
I have faith

Nothing is permanent here inside and out of me
nothing goes away forever
and nothing stays forever either

I could change that previous post
from blogging to thinking
from thinking to eating
from eating to breathing
breathing to afraid
afraid to happiness
happiness to the rain
the rain to the sun
sun to defects

not all the examples would work
but you get my gist

there are tonnes of things I am powerless over
I could analyse til the "cows come home"

I have been brain washed
My mind needed a cleanse
I have had a huge psychological shift
occur within and its still shifting
grade 100 on the rickter scale
I have been reborn
rather like some Jesus followers I know
Who see the light from jesus
and rejoice

There are many rooms in Gods mansion
like jesus talks about in (John 14)
a large section on G wing being
recovery rooms
Theres a huge operating theatre
for spiritual surgery
I has a massive spiritual awakening
during a 12 step operation
over a period of a few years

I have walked around a few other rooms
in the mansion, they all generally feel nice
and welcoming
most people are friendly and doing their thing

AA has no monopoly on sobriety, staying sober
(see forward to 2nd edition big book)
or the path to enlightenment
I am happy with that
AA is just a beginning
AA is a really good starting point
AA is a really good reference point
FOR ME

I am really glad to hear when people get sober
without AA, as its yet another drunk
who hasnt died from this stuff
Its also another avenue to suggest
when people find AA isnt actually working for them
as happens at times

I have just found what works for me
As yet, it works when I work it
it dont when I dont

I am not cured
most people I know over 10, 20 years sober
behave and think differently to me
in fact thinking about it
most people think and behave differently to me
I have given up trying to understand them
or expecting them to understand me

Do you have people around you who
behave and think exactly like you?
Do you really?

God is always around when I need him
and always delivers what I need

I am off to bed, I am very TIRED
good night
God bless

5 comments:

Christine said...

no, no one here who is like me
Can you come over and play?
xxxxooo

MICKY said...

Johno Said:
I have just found what works for me
As yet, it works when I work it
it dont when I dont.

Micky Said:
Dear Johno,
Your posts are getting crazier. Can't you see what is happening to you - AA is sending you insane? I have told you how you will be released from your "psychological prison", but you don't seem to want to know. The more you try to analyse your process, the more you will get closer to the abyss (HELL). I suggest you get down on your knees & ask Jesus to forgive you your sins & to have mercy on your soul. Stay clear of AA & other Steppers, especially 12 Step BLOGGERS. Do you want to spend an eternity in HELL (AA) or HEAVEN - John 3: 16. Are you reading the BIBLE – burn your BIG BOOK or use it as TOILET PAPER.

I, MICKY, AM A GIFT TO ALL PEOPLE!!

MICKY said...

Dear Johno,
You are not an "alcoholic", but a SINNER, just like me.

Christine, Rhonda, Las, Syd & Kathy Lynne, is anti - Christ. They are emotionally shutdown, demonic, raging, shape - shifting, Bill Wilson zombies.

They don't care about your eternal soul, like I do. I have done the work, Johno!! They are TERRIFIED "little children”, who want their MOMMIES (AA).

Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints,
—Ephesians 6:11-18.

I, MICKY, AM A GIFT TO ALL PEOPLE!!

Kathy Lynne said...

It's awesome to just be who we are and know that is how we are supposed to be. Best thing I have learned in sobriety.

MICKY said...

Kathy Lynne said...
It's awesome to just be who we are and know that is how we are to be.

Micky Said:
Dear Kathy
Who are you? You are an emotionally shutdown, demonic, raging, brainwashed, cowardly, moronic, shape- shifting, "bull headed", Bill Wilson Clone.

Stop leading, Johno, astray, you anti - Christ zombie!!

I love you Kathy Lynne! Do you love me? How do you feel, Kath?

I, MICKY, AM A GIFT TO ALL PEOPLE