Saturday, January 21, 2006

Cant think of a title Yet

Continue to watch for selfishness,
dishonesty, resentment, and fear. When these
crop up, we ask God at once to remove them. We discuss
them with someone immediately and make amends
quickly if we have harmed anyone. Then we resolutely
turn our thoughts to someone we can help. Love and
tolerance of others is our code.
P84 Alcoholics Anonymous

I am grateful

This week, I have experienced
human emotions, feelings
uncrippled emotions, feelings
and dealt with them as they came up
not tried to meddle
not tried to deny
not wallowed
just felt
real powerful feelings, emotions
identified them
and let them remain in the day
which is a blessing as different ones came up each day

Its an amazing experience living sober
I have no wish to escape whats going on
infact in a surreal way, I welcome it
inspite of the pain I have felt this week
I want to keep on
I want to experience
I want to take part
I want to be part of

this family is going through something
every family goes through at some point
we are not special or different
everyones mum/sister/whatever dies at somepoint
they dont all die by the same lead up thats all
She aint dying yet
she starts chemo monday
I get to see her saturday
We get to spend time in the present

I have/am clearing away away my resentments
addressing my defective thinking
Restraint of tongue and pen is progressing
doing my part in clearing the channel
between me and my Higher power

Put in the footwork
let go of the outcome

Your job now is to be at the place where you
may be of maximum helpfulness to others,
so never hesitate to go anywhere if you can be helpful

P102 Alcoholics Anonymous

I will

I was doing the right things because I ought to
Now I am doing the right things because I want to

God has done again for me what I couldnt do for myself

My faith is enlarging
My reliance on God is progressing steadily

Real life is do-able
A day at a time

Keep on keeping on
Doing my lousy best

What seemed at first a flimsy reed, has proved
to be the loving and powerful hand of God.
A new life has been given us or, if you
prefer, "a design for living" that really works.

P28 Alcoholics Anonymous

Thank you

3 comments:

dAAve said...

Nice list and well said.

You can remove the word "lousy" (near the end). If it's your best, it can't be lousy because it's God's will.

Rex said...

Great words...good reminders!

NMAMFQLMSH said...

My thoughts and prayers are with your sick family member.
Stay positive!
I see you,
JJ