Monday, January 02, 2006

Today

has gone really ok
i even realised that my mum dont need me to pass on program stuff
she already keeps stuff simple
and doesnt project

strange it didnt rub off on me then
i didnt point it out to her
no need, she probably assumes i knew this stuff for years
(yes i am a mindreader)

anyway, done more step 4
still stared, but no beatings today
realised how my loneliness has been, could be, is such a liability
and how chronically selfish i am, can be, have been, could be

thank god am in with a chance
now i know

i need to check my motives before i do anything
prevention is easier than cure
especially as sometimes there is no cure

2 comments:

Trudging said...

Glad you are doing well. Motives are HUGE for me too.

Blue said...

yeah, I agree motives are tricky... it took me awhile to even become aware of mine let alone to know if they were good or not