Thursday, December 29, 2005

Another day in the 4th Dimension

I am grateful

for being useful today
not doing what others did today
doing what i get paid to do
doing also what i been asked to do
not being a loafer "just because i can get away with it"
doing a days work, instead of fantasising

making another attempt at step4
Just for today & didnt act out when it hurt
Just for today I sat with it and did a bit more

got honest with another human being
being told its ok to be reminded
admitted my feeling vulnerable
seeing its ok to not do it perfect
seeing i need help
seeing thats the whole point
seeing how much I have acted out on my loneliness in the past
having choices today in more and more areas of my life
talking it instead of texting it

"scream in, scream out...time for healing"
(Just the way am feeling - Feeder)

for another sober day in the 4th dimension
and the willingness to get words down on paper

3 comments:

muylajuana said...

Love your list. It is straight from the heart.
Thanks.

NMAMFQLMSH said...

seeing its ok to not do it perfect
seeing i need help
seeing thats the whole point

love it.
actually the whole post is great.
I see you,
JJ

Blue said...

You talk about willingness, action and progress (not perfection) all very important parts of working the program, thanks for the great reminder on what it takes to get better.

Have a happy & safe New Year