Friday, November 28, 2008

:)



enough now
time for some action
am I serious or not
I had to prove by action I was serious about recovery
action meant written work!
I have to prove I am serious about improving my conscious contact

If not members of religious bodies, we sometimes select and memorize a few set prayers which emphasize the principles we have been discussing. There are many helpful books also. Suggestions about these may be obtained from one’s priest, minister, or rabbi. Be quick to see where religious people are right. Make use of what they offer. p87

i have

We never apologize to anyone for depending upon our Creator. We can laugh at those who think spirituality the way of weakness. Paradoxically, it is the way of strength. The verdict of the ages is that faith means courage. All men of faith have courage. They trust their God. We never apologize for God. Instead we let Him demonstrate, through us, what He can do. We ask Him to remove our fear and direct our attention to what He would have us be. At once, we commence to outgrow fear. p68

i will

somethings happened
a spiritual experience
somethings starting to feel
like its penetrating
where it needs to be
in my heart
its taking time
and willingness
and much pain
the battle inside me
is massive
and much turmoil
big storm
and I am being
tossed around
though
I feel a strength
a powerful hand of God
there
here
every time I get struck
from onside or another
somehow
somehow
the flimsy reed i imagined it was
is really all powerful
3 dimensional
4th dimensional even!
always is
i know
i feel
i love

you know I dont think I have cried
as much as I have this year
its exhausting
but must be necessary
or i would hold back
and resist!
I cant any more
it just comes
am powerless
crying most weeks
not every day
challenges
changes
the truth
coming up left right and centre
too hard to keep track of

Last night I let go
absolutely
today I changed
or is it really
today I came to accept
came to believe
what you already know to be true

ok i'm off to read
show willing

3 comments:

Lydia said...

I'm loving reading your expressions of your journey, and seeing the varied ways you visually punctuate your days and how you're feeling, growing. To use the clip from Ally McBeal (I loved that show and had forgotten the song) was a vibrantly alive way to introduce a soulfully spiritual piece of writing. I have a feeling that an old Zen master would say something like: you are getting it.

Kathy Lynne said...

beautiful...

Syd said...

Johno, it makes me a bit sad about your sadness this past year. But I hope that things are moving towards your happiness and peace. Accepting is the key and peacefulness comes on the heels of acceptance.