is that i forced myself to sit with my step 8, but didnt beat myself up when it didnt come as freely as I would have liked.
is that I am willing to look at the harms I have done over and over.
is that i ate, 3 good meals, did some washing and went out and bought some nourishing food that I will eat.
is that I remembered that people will rarely behave the way I expect them to.
is that I can feel the progress thats being made.
is that I got angry, but didnt act out on it.
is that I did mind my own business (twice)
is that i did keep my mouth shut.
is that I am noticing the changes in me.
is that I suddenly noticed where I have been acting out in some old behaviour
is that I am not so afraid of my imperfections, my flaws, my shortcomings.
is that I followed my sponsors suggestion.
is that I remembered that I am an alcoholic, recovering from a killer illness.
is that I put my recovery programme first.
is that I held out my hand to a suffering alcoholic, even though I was afraid of the outcome
is that I am in with a chance, see you're doing it again, thank you