Sunday, February 10, 2008

Even though we are dying we ask... Do you have a sufficient substitute?

Anything seems better than
Going back to AA
How are we to admit we go to AA?
how are we to admit to a society
that appears to accept binge drinking
and irresponsible behaviour whilst drunk
on a regular basis
Perhaps I am not an alky
as most of my friends
behave the same way as I do?

Perhaps I am not that bad really
Perhaps I dont need to keep coming to meetings
Perhaps I got it wrong
Perhaps I just need to cut down abit
Yes I have tried before
and it worked for abit
So perhaps I'll try again
stopping for abit I mean

Despite all we can say, many who are real alcoholics are not going to believe they are in that class. By every form of self-deception and experimentation, they will try to prove themselves exceptions to the rule, therefore nonalcoholic.P31

what I want to say really is
that the thought of coming here
every week for the rest of my life
is just simply pants!
but i dont want to hurt your feelings
and even though life's really awful
you dont really know how bad it is
and i cant tell you, you wouldnt understand

Anyway my life revolves around bars etc
all my friends drink
how would I tell my mum?
how will I have fun again?
even though what I just experienced
was simply pants!
the thought of doing all this is much worse
yeh I have only been to one meeting
ok i'll come to another next week
I promise

We have shown how we got out from under. You say, "Yes, I’m willing. But am I to be consigned to a life where I shall be stupid, boring and glum, like some righteous people I see? I know I must get along without liquor, but how can I?P152

but I am not sure its for me
Yeh what I heard all makes sense
I did some of those things too
and felt those things
and said those things

Have you a sufficient substitute?" P152

Yes, there is a substitute and it is vastly more than that. It is a fellowship in Alcoholics Anonymous. There you will find release from care, boredom and worry. Your imagination will be fired. Life will mean something at last. The most satisfactory years of your existence lie ahead.P152

Music is The Mountain Goats


molly said...

hiya! so you liking yummmmmmmmmmmmm huh? isn't it GREAT!! too kewl how it works ya know.. hope you doing well and happy.

Ingenue, Interrupted said...

Hey there gorgeous! I think you might be my UK sober soul twin....One of the things my fav astrologer suggested to celebrate the eclipse was to find a cyber pen pal on the other side of the world. I nominate you!

All the kisses in the cosmos,

P.S. I can't wait reading up on what UK AA is like!

Kathy Lynne said...

Yes, life does mean something at last.

Syd said...

I'm glad that you've found a good substitute for the craziness of alcohol.