Sunday, August 28, 2005

Learning to deal with

Disillusionment - To free or deprive of illusion

Today I learned that its ok, to take part in life as long as I expect the unexpected. Its taken me a long time to open my mouth & voice my opinion & not worry what you thought. For years if i did dare say what i thought, when it might not be what you wanted to hear, i would worry about what would happen next. If you looked at me after, i would worry for weeks, drink on it, replay it over and over in my head.

I am allowed to voice my opinion, as long as i remember other people are too.
I also must mind my own business what people think of me, no matter what.
I am powerless over other people, no matter how well intentioned my intentions are

Today
I am grateful for

  • having step 10's
  • the people that tell me the ego puncturing truth
  • the truth that always sets me free (eventually)
  • that everything teaches me (positive & negative)
  • that i am still growing
  • accepting i am imperfect
  • the willingness to listen & take suggestions from those that walked before
  • Knowing that i dont have to do tackle my whole lifes problems today
  • Knowing that I do not have take on board everyones suggestions
  • remembering nowadays, if i do what those who have what i want do, i get what they have
  • accepting that i may not have what people want
  • Accepting that others walk a different path to me & do stay sober
  • that people dont always agree with me
  • that i accept that i can be wrong
  • accepting that my experience wont help everyone
  • accepting that my experience does help some
  • for the 1st 100 members telling us Our real purpose is to fit ourselves to be of maximum service to God and the people about us. P77 Alcoholics Anonymous
  • the the 1st 100 members telling us Resentment is the "number one" offender. It destroysmore alcoholics than anything else. P64 Alcoholics Anonymous
  • restraint of tongue & pen
  • Respecting anothers request to butt out in the future
  • Learning from everybody, no matter who they are
  • Staying sober today
  • Ending the day free of anger & resentment
  • Being reminded what a great gift Accepting that I am an alcoholic is
  • Staying sober today
  • For going to bed free of fear & resentment
  • For being a part of something that wants the me to comprehend peace & serenity
  • Keeping it in the day

2 comments:

NMAMFQLMSH said...

Good list. May you have a peaceful nights sleep.
Peace,
JJ

Trudging said...

Great list.