Learning to deal with

Disillusionment - To free or deprive of illusion

Today I learned that its ok, to take part in life as long as I expect the unexpected. Its taken me a long time to open my mouth & voice my opinion & not worry what you thought. For years if i did dare say what i thought, when it might not be what you wanted to hear, i would worry about what would happen next. If you looked at me after, i would worry for weeks, drink on it, replay it over and over in my head.

I am allowed to voice my opinion, as long as i remember other people are too.
I also must mind my own business what people think of me, no matter what.
I am powerless over other people, no matter how well intentioned my intentions are

Today
I am grateful for

• having step 10's
• the people that tell me the ego puncturing truth
• the truth that always sets me free (eventually)
• that everything teaches me (positive & negative)
• that i am still growing
• accepting i am imperfect
• the willingness to listen & take suggestions from those that walked before
• Knowing that i dont have to do tackle my whole lifes problems today
• Knowing that I do not have take on board everyones suggestions
• remembering nowadays, if i do what those who have what i want do, i get what they have
• accepting that i may not have what people want
• Accepting that others walk a different path to me & do stay sober
• that people dont always agree with me
• that i accept that i can be wrong
• accepting that my experience wont help everyone
• accepting that my experience does help some
• for the 1st 100 members telling us Our real purpose is to fit ourselves to be of maximum service to God and the people about us. P77 Alcoholics Anonymous
• the the 1st 100 members telling us Resentment is the "number one" offender. It destroysmore alcoholics than anything else. P64 Alcoholics Anonymous
• restraint of tongue & pen
• Respecting anothers request to butt out in the future
• Learning from everybody, no matter who they are
• Staying sober today
• Ending the day free of anger & resentment
• Being reminded what a great gift Accepting that I am an alcoholic is
• Staying sober today
• For going to bed free of fear & resentment
• For being a part of something that wants the me to comprehend peace & serenity
• Keeping it in the day